for you darlin xxx  / Sarah Porter Angel Lauras Mummy
ive been reading all about you on your page and your a little superstar, i know you like spiderman so i made this for you, good night sweet angel , love n kisses xxxxx

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Welcome Tyler into heaven Ryan  / Mommy
Ryan,

It breaks my heart to hear of all these precious children going to heaven at such a young age. Grandma Trish called and told us a little boy died from the same brain tumor you did, so I looked it up and his name is Tyler. He was just 3 years old. I can not wait to get your foundation underway so we can help find a cure. 

Welcome Tyler into heaven and give him big hugs & kisses Ryan. 

We love and miss you dearly!

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Red Gum balls!  / Mommy
Alyssa and I walked passed a gumball machine and I had to go back and get some for us. Would you know it, we both got a RED gumball. How weird is that! 

It reminded us of how you would always have to have one when we saw a gumball machine. You would make daddy struggle for his change each time and run him out of quarters until you got a red gumball. We keep quarters in your little gumball machine at home.

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How you look today!  / Mommy
Daddy & I were talking about getting a picture made of you every year so we could see how handsome you would keep getting year after year. I would love one of you at age 30, since that is the age of you in heaven ( they say).  We miss you so much and think of you ALL the time! Love you.

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Your Fish  / Mommy
Hi Ry-Ry,

I picked out 2 beautiful, oh sorry I mean handsome red fish for you. I think the one I will call Nemo - to remind us of the one you had at Grandma's and not sure what to call the other one yet. He is quick but likes to be by himself. Love you and miss you dearly.

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Children with cancer  / Mommy

The medals on our chests
Are port-a-caths for meds
Helmets won't stay on
'cause no hair is on our heads.
Our weapons of destruction
We take everyday
We fight the battle within us
While we struggle on to play.
We fight with honor and courage
No marine could do as well
We are only little children
Living in this hell.
So bring on the medals
The Purple Hearts of War
The Gold Cross, The Silver Star
To place upon our scars.
For we are the children of cancer
No one has fought so hard
But everyday we struggle on
Our life is our reward.

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Happy New Year!  / Mommy
Ryan,

The last new year we spent together we were in the hospital. Actually, we were in the hospital from Dec 26th til Feb 11th 2005. You had a great christmas, but never got to play with your christmas gifts. By the time we got home, you were confined to the house for the next 100 days and from then out the news just got worse. I hope you are able to spend this New Year with us at Auntie Cathy's ( your favorite place to be). I know Daddy & I will be thinking of you and sending you hugs & kisses. We love you and miss you very much. Keep webbing everyone in heaven!

Mommy



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Christmas with the King  / Ryan
To my dearest family that I left behind
I need to touch your heart tonight.
For its Christmas and your missing me,
And the season doesn't seem so bright.

While others are celebrating the holiday,
you find it hard to do the same.
You watch other families gather in splendor,
while you tearfully mention my name.

I know it was painful for you this year,
to decorate your Christmas tree.
For you cried as you hung each ornament.
Your thoughts were focused on me.

You shopped for presents for others.
Although you felt out of place.
When each day was over,
I could see loneliness written on your face.

You can't seem to get into the spirit.
To enjoy any festivities this year.
But think of the Christmases in the past,
and you'll feel my presence near.

Yes, and I come tonight to let you know,
I'm happier than I could ever be.
I'm spending my Christmas in heaven;
with the one who died for me.

So go out and feel that Christmas cheer.
Listen to the choirs as they sing.
And know that I'am happier than I've ever been....
Spending Christmas with the King.

Written by Kaye Des'Ormeaux




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Merry Christmas Sweetheart!  / Mommy, Daddy &. Alyssa
Ryan,

Not to have you here for Christmas is very hard! We all miss you very much. Your sister is missing you like crazy. She asked us last night if Santa can perform miracles why can't he give you back to us. Daddy told her Santa doesn't do those kind of miracles and she cried for at least 15 minutes. Then this morning she asked why Santa did not put anything in your stocking. We love you and wish you were here to celebrate with us. I know you are having a party today in heaven, but if you get a chance, please give us all hugs & kisses! 

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Merry Christmas  / Sarah Hauger (alexs friend )

Have a Merry Christmas Little buddy hope that you and Alex eat alot of cookies and open alet of presents, we love and miss u you both .. look out for your sister and mom and dad and be there angel... love sarah

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Cookies / Mommy
We made Christmas cookies today and decorated them with Catlyn & Shannon. We missed you helping us!! Shannon decorated a cookie for you and said she wants to put it at your grave. Alyssa & Catlyn also made one for you. I will put them on your tree. We love and miss you so much!

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Cowabunga Dude!  / Mommy
Your sister wanted to watch the Ninja Turtles last night, so we watched it together. How could I not watch it without you? I could hear you laughing and turning to look at me, mama did you see that. Your sitting in your chair, holding your chocolate milk and kickin your legs with excitement. Now she wants to watch Spiderman! She reminds me of you sometimes. Some of the things that come out of her mouth. She really misses you! She doesn't have her big brother to protect her, argue with her & kiss her anymore. She is lonely without you!

We love you very very much!

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Christmas Angel  / Grandma Trish Grandpa Tony (Grandparents)

Ryan, yesterday we went to your house to celebrate Daddy's and
Grandpa's birthdays.  Guess What - You are the angel on the top
of Mommy's Christmas tree.  I can't think of a more perfect
angel than you. There are twinkling lights all around your smiling
face.  It looks beautiful. Daddy and grandpa would have loved to
get lots of birthday kisses from you.  Save them up so someday
when we are all together again you can smooch us all.
Miss you, love you and think of you everyday.

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Why? / Mommy
Forever we will miss you,
Forever we will cry,
Why did you have to leave this earth
And gain your wings to fly?

You know we loved you dearly,
More than anyone could know,
Why did you have to leave so soon
Why did you have to go?

Our hearts down here are broken,
And it can never mend,
Forever we protected you,
Until the very end.

We pray to God for answers,
We talk to him each day,
We hope that you can hear us Lord
As on bended knees we pray.

Take good care of our child up there,
He was much wanted here,
Wrap your arms around him please
And tell him we still care,

Let him know we love him so
And will forever more.
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The bricks in our backyard  / Mommy
We're gathered here today
To remember our children who have died.
We look at these bricks
Laid carefully side by side.
For us, this is not just a walkway
Each brick represents our loss
Our pain, our devastation
The unbelievable cost
But each brick represents
our love, our joy
our feelings of great pride
For each girl and boy
Our children still live on in our hearts
We will love them forever
The memories will never part
So to those who see the bricks and may ask why
We're saying please tread softly
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Memories / Mommy
The Holiday Season is just not the same,
A smile is missing when saying one name.
For parents who’ve lost a daughter or son,
Nothing can bring back the delightful fun,
Of watching them talk, laugh, or just run.
The memories are all that we do have now,
We do go on…..only God knows how.
A New Year comes as midnight arrives,
Our Angels still a big part of our lives.
If only we could trade the presents we receive,
For one more day with those whom we grieve!
But nothing can bring back our beloved child,
The one that laughed, cried, and often smiled.
They are together in a much better place,
Watching us cry…..touching our face!
Although we miss them on Holidays to share,
Be assured their loving presence fills the air,
At home, in church, at New York’s Times Square!
So celebrating the Holidays are now hard to do,
But always remember they are thinking of you too
Wishing you happiness and showing their love,
Not on this Earth, but from Heaven above!
-Dan Bryl, Lawrenceville, GA TCF
In Memory of his daughter, Jessica Close

Christmas in heaven  / Ryan
Christmas In Heaven (I see the countless)

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
with tiny lights like heaven's stars reflecting on the snow

The sight is so spectacular please wipe away that tear
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear
but the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up
here

I have no words to tell you of the joy their voices bring
for it is beyond description to hear the angels sing

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year

I can't tell you of the splendor or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas with our Savior face to face?

I'll ask him to lift your spirit as I tell him of your love
so then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above

Please let your hearts be joyful and let your spirit sing
for I am spending Christmas in heaven and I'm walking with the
King.
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The Moment  / Mommy
The Moment that you died, my heart split in two. One filled with memories. The other died with you. I often lay awake at night, when the world is fast asleep. And take a walk down memory lane, with tears upon my cheeks, Remembering you is easy, I do it every day. But missing you is heartache, that never goes away. I hold you tightly within my heart, and there you will remain. Life has gone on without you, But never will be the same. 

Love you big guy!

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Imagine / Mommy
Imagine having everything you ever wanted in a family,
Imagine having fun, laughter and love in your heart,
Imagine everything you live for is for your family,
Now, Imagine if this ended just with a flash of your eyes,
Imagine your heart, your laughter and your smiles gone,
Imagine living in this world without the one's you love the most,
Imagine something made from a miracle, get taken away too soon,
Imagine the mother, the father, the sister, and the friends,
Imagine trying to cope with this emptiness,
Imagine life that does not seem there is no meaning in your heart,
Imagine your soul been ripped and torn into pieces,
With an unbearable loss and pain,
Just Imagine, because for me this is all real.

There is no imagine this,
There is no imagine this,
I face this reality everyday for the rest of my human life,
Like a nightmare that you can't wake up from,
Like a wound that cannot heal or close,
Like a pain that is so unbearable it keeps on hurting,
Imagine yes I can,
For this is my life now and for all eternity.
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Until we meet again  / Mommy
Each morning when we wake
We know that you are gone
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on

Our hearts still ache with sadness
and many tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know

Our thoughts are always with you
your place no one can fill
In life we loved you dearly
In death we love you still

There will always be a heartache
and often a silent tear
But always a precious memory
of the days when you were here

If tears could make a staircase
and heartaches make a lane
We'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you home again

We hold you close within our hearts
And there you will remain
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again

Our family chain is broken now
And nothing will be the same
But as God calls us one by one
The chain will link again
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