A Mother's Love  / Mommy
I have watched you grow up over the years,
And shared in the learning,
the joys and the tears.
I've seen you become the person
who you are today,
A child of mine,
and so very special to me,
in every way.

Through the years
you have brought my heart many smiles,
And even through any hard times,
you made it all worthwhile.
I will always be here for you,
always right by your side,
Whether it be just to listen to you,
or to be your guide.

I can't lead your life for you,
and protect you from all harms,
But my love will be embracing you,
as if you were in my arms.
Above all else,
your happiness is so very important to me,
And when I see your smiling face,
it fills my heart so lovingly.

I gave you the gift of life,
and in return I've received love,
You a true blessing
given to me from the Lord above.
For the love between a mother and a child
is like no other,
And I am so proud that I am able to say,
I am YOUR mother.



Love you VERY VERY Much!!
Mommy
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trick or treating  / Grandma Val
the first outfit I made for you your dad said I made the pants look like M C Hammer pants.  but you ran all over and looked so cute.I wonder what you would have been this year, missed you so. Close

Halloween / Grandma Trish &. Grandpa Tony (Grandparents)
I was wondering what you would be for Halloween this year -
maybe a superhero angel. How about Spidey with wings?
Don't forget to trick or treat by Great Grandma Rompala. I'll
bet she has a great big Hershey bar just for you.  Wish you
could ring our doorbell tonight. We would be so happy to
see you with or without a costume.  Have fun today and don't
eat all your candy in one day. Love and Kisses
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The Greatest Memory of All  / Mommy
I send this special message to you,son
Hoping you can hear what I say.
I always thought you would be with me.
Me watching you grow day by day.

I never once dreamed I'd say good-bye.
Nothing seems fair in this tragedy.
I wanted to hold your children ...
Give them the love that I gave you.

I think about you with every passing hour.
Only God knows how I miss you.
It's just a bond between a Mother & Son ...
A bond that can never be torn in two.

I feel that you're watching me from above.
Seeing the things that I do here.
That seems to help me survive each day,
Just knowing that you're always near.

I watch other boys with their Moms.
And I so long to be in their place.
But there is a beauty that only we share.
And it shines on your loving face.

And, now as I think back over the years,
there are incidents that I recall.
But loving you & you loving me, son...
That's the greatest memory of all.
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No one will ever replace you!  / Mommy

I Look Back The Day You Went Away.

It Broke My Heart, No Words I Could Say.

Just Tears From The Pain I Felt. I Think Of

The Wonderful Memories We Had, Makes My

Heart Melt.

The "I Love You Mom"I Will Never Hear

Again. It Hurts So Much Inside, The Tears

Begin.

They Flow Like A River, A River To A Sea.

Thats Just How Much Ryan,You Do Mean To

Me.

That Look That You Gave, That Smile;

That Grin. One I Will Never See From You

Again "my Son"

You Were Unique Since The Day That You

Were Born, Now That Your Gone,

My Life Will Never Be The Same.

I Must Understand That The Lord Has Many

Things For You to Do.

I Want You To Know Ryan, I'll Always Love

You.
I Look At Your Picture, I Hold It So Tight.

I Wonder How I Will Make It Without You

Just One More Night.

I Will Try To Hold Together,

And Cherish The Memories That We Had.

Theres One Other Thing Ryan, "I'm Proud To

Be Your Mom" xx


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Wish you were here!  / Mommy
There's a hush upon the world...
an overpowering silence

that cannot be broken.

For I will never see your face again

or hear your laughter fill the room

dancing eyes no more to cast their light

upon the darkest day.

I wish you were here...

how I wish you were here.

There's an empty place

no one can ever fill.

And from the depths of darkest night

only your light

could ever lead me home again.

Only your special grace

could fulfill the promise of the day.

I wish you were here...

how I wish you were here.

I turn amid the bustle of the day,

expecting to see you there.

A fleeting movement,

a glimpse of something familiar,

and my senses are flooded with you.

Shadows flicker in my memory

and slowly disappear.

I wish you were here...

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I will wait  / Mommy
I can't believe that your really gone now
Seems like it's all just a dream
How could it be that the world would go on
When something has died within me
Leaves will turn, my heart will burn
With colors of you
Snow will fall, but I'll recall your warmth
Summer wind, breathing in your memory
I'll miss you

But there will be a time
When I'll see your face
And I'll hear your voice
And there we will laugh again
And there will come a day
When I'll hold you close
No more tears to cry
'Cause we'll have forever
So I'll wait....

I can't imagine my life without you
You held a place all your own
Just knowing that you were beneath the same sky
Oh what a joy I have known
On rainy days, in many ways
You water my heart
On starry nights I'll glimpse the light
Of your smile
Never far from my heart
You'll stay with me
And so I'll wait....

Until that time
When I see your face
And I hear your voice
And then we will laugh again
And on that day
I will hold you close
No more tears to cry
'Cause we'll have forever
But for now, I wait....
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My Love is with you!  / Mommy
My Love Is With You
My love is with you Oh, sweet son, what can I say?
My heart is empty without you each day.
The angel wings you wear must be so grand,
If only I could reach out and touch your hand.
Maybe then we could say good-bye
Which could help dry the tears that I cry.
Now I know that's impossible for us to do,
So let's make a deal, just me and you.
When I look to the stars at night,
You look for me with all your might.
When you see me just shine real bright,
And together we can send our love and say good night.
I miss you, son, more every day,
And the emptiness I feel will not go away.
You are my son and will always be,
My angel in heaven looking down on me.
You will live in my heart,
And I will try to be strong,
Because, my son, in my heart is where you belong.
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Tears & Cheers  / Mommy
We will never stop loving our children. A thoughtful, gentle man named William Penn once wrote, "Those who love beyond the world cannot be separated by it. Death cannot kill that which does not die." We loved our children yesterday, we love them today, and we will love them tomorrow. There is neither force nor foe that can ever remove the love we have for our children. They live within us and beyond this world, now and forever. This is not the way we wanted our lives or their lives to be because our children belong, not to the ages, but to us. In the end, sadly, they are not ours to keep. They will always be ours to remember, to honor, and to love.

We hurt so much because we love so much. It is our curse to live with the reality of death's details. It is our Blessing to be given a glimpse of the infinite possibilities of perpetual Love. It is not a fair trade. Neither is this a bargain we sought to make. The Children that died too soon have broken our hearts while giving us the great gift of enlightenment. Where do we exchange that unwanted present for one minute with them when no refund line exists. We reach out to strangers, to family or friends to help us remember, to help us hope all is not lost. It helps. It is not a cure. This pitiful plight is not a wound that time heals.

Death cannot kill that which does not die. Our children would no more leave us than we would stop loving them. Those that Love beyond the world cannot be separated by it. No one, no thing, not now, not ever can take away our love for our children. Our Love defies death and taunts time while embracing and displaying its eternal nature. Sometimes Love travels an earthly path filled with tears and cheers inspired by the life of a child measured in moments or years. Our children live forever in the glorious, unending infinite light of our Love, as we in theirs. That is our blessing. That is their gift and maybe they are waiting to see if we like it. Perhaps a cheer joined to the tear is what they need to hear.


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My heart aches for you!  / Mommy
When these children we loved are taken,

And the years pass slowly by,

You feel the grieving is over.

But the ache is still inside.

This life of ours must continue

And the tears we must learn to hide,

But you know it will never leave you,

This ache we feel inside.

Their siblings go on with their future,

And you know this is how it should be.

You share in their joys and sorrows,

But that ache won't let you free,

Where they rest, you visit less often,

And their voices are not as clear,

And our zest for life is returning,

But the ache is always near,

Our friends and families tell us,

How well we handled our grief,

If they only knew deep within us,

From this ache there is no relief,

When alone we talk to them often,

For we know they are still by our side,

And the warmth of our memories comfort,

But the ache will always abide,

As we continue this earthly voyage,

And the calm and the storms pass by,

We will cherish our precious memories,

And this ache we hold inside.







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New House  / Grandma Trish Grandpa Tony (Grandparents)
I can't believe how long it's been since I've written to you. I just
want you to know that doesn't mean we don't think of you every
single day and miss you like crazy.  We have a new house now
and I wish you could see it. Alyssa has picked out her bedroom
but I'm sure she would share it with you. Vinny came over with
Uncle Scott yesterday and he already knows where the toy
box is. Grandpa put up the collage pictures today of you,
Alyssa and your cousins.  They are in the den, right over the
couch. Yours and Bellas are finished because they go up to
6 yrs old. We still have to add some more for Alyssa and Vinny.
I promise I won't wait so long to talk to you. Hugs and Kisses.... Close

Mommy's Angel  / Mommy

You're my friend, my companion,
Through good times and bad.

My friend, my buddy,
Through happy and sad.

Beside me you stand, beside me you walk,
You're there to listen, you're there to talk.

With happiness, with smiles, with pain and tears,
I know you'll be there, throughout the years!

Ryan, My Angel
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Balloons / Mommy



WHERE DO BALLOONS GO WHEN YOU SET THEM FREE???

Where do balloons go when you set them free??
do they float into the clouds or get stuck in a tree?
do they fly high in the sky or get popped by a bee?
do they soar witht he birds and the bugs in the air...
or stay close to the ground and get chased by a bear?
does the wind blow them out over the big blue ocean..
or do they climb up and over samll hills and big mountains??

Do they go out into space and circle the stars and then
fall back to earth after traveling so far??
or does GOD collect them all in a big bouquet and give them to the children in heaven each day??
where do balloons go when you set them free?
I hope they go to heaven as a gift for you from me!! 


We will send you more balloons today, I hope you get them all!!

Ma Ma Close

Ryan's strength  / Mommy
Children with cancer are like candles in the wind who accept the possibility that they are in danger of being extinguished by a gust of wind from nowhere; and yet, as they flicker and dance to remain alive, their brilliance challenges the darkness and dazzle those of us who watch their light.
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My son  / Mommy
"I loved the boy with the utmost love of which my soul is capable and he is taken from me – yet in the agony of my spirit in surrendering such a treasure, I feel a thousand times richer than if I had never possessed it."
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missing you  / Daddy
It's been a year since I've been able to hold you, kiss you, hug you, play with you, laugh with you and so many more. I am so happy you are not in anymore pain but I miss you like crazy. You were my best bud, my bubba, and the best son a dad could have. I love you Ryan and I think of you every day. Close

One of the lucky ones  / Mommy

Were you one of the Lucky Ones?

Did you get to meet the one that lived
every day as if it were his last?

Did you see that smiling face,
did you hear his infectious laugh?

Did you know the one that had a hug
for even the ones that fussed at him?

Did you ever go somewhere and know
when the life of the party arrived?

Did you know the one that could make
the best of the worst situation?

Did you feel like you were a special
person around him?

Did you ever feel so loved?

Were you one of the lucky ones...
that got to meet my son? Close

To My Family  / Ryan
I was sitting here in heaven and having a wonderful day.
I started thinking about you and all the things I didn’t get a chance to Say.
I don’t want you to worry about me and please don’t shed any tears,
Because I will wait for you in Heaven, If it takes a hundred years.
Everything I had on Earth, I have in heaven too!
My first day here my body became Brand New.
It is really pretty here and I love my new home,
Although your heart is broken because my body is Gone.
My love will always be there, as you go along the way,
Just take a peek inside your heart there is where I’ll stay.
Know that I loved my Family and all my friends too,
My thoughts will be with each of You, your whole life through Close

A child of mine!!  / Mommy
I'll lend you for a little while, a child of Mine, God said.
For you to love the while he lives, and mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years, or forty-two or three.
But will you, till I call him back, take care of him for Me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you, and should his stay be brief,
You'll always have his memories as solace for your grief.

I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught below I want this child to learn.
I've looked the whole world over in My search for teachers true,
And from the folk that crowd life's lane, I have selected you.

Now, will you give him all your love, and not think the labor vain?
Nor hate Me when I come to call this lent child back again?

I answered to the Lord, Dear God, thy will be done.
For all the joys this child shall bring, the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness; we'll love him while we may.
For all the happiness we'll know, we'll ever-grateful stay.
So, should your angels call him back much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand! Close

Last year this time!  / Mommy

Ryan,

This weekend last year you laid on the couch with your father and I right by your side up until the time you gave your last breathe. I can remember the look on your face as you laid there in such discomfort. You got the fever and I remember looking at daddy saying I don't think this one is going away. I am so happy you are not in anymore pain, but I sure do miss you very very much!!! I would do anything to get you back!

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